My life: Welcoming Ramadhan

My life: Welcoming Ramadhan

Welcoming Ramadhan

It always feels good to welcome Ramadhan month. I pray to Allah SWT that Ramadhan this month will bring us more blessings from Allah. I'm just so excited. Give us antoher chance to praise you in this coming Ramadhan, Allah.

Surprise Party for mother

Today we had a surprise party for mother. She actually celebrated her birthday on July 14. Well, it's not really late yet. And the surprise party was great. Mother didn't notice at all that we had it for her. We changed plans several times. The last is this one, we cooked for mother. We had Nasi Tumpeng, Urap, fried chicken, fried Tempeh. We bought a birthday cake also. And this party really surprised her. She had tears in her eyes.
Happy birthday, mother. May Allah always grant you happiness, wealth, and iman. Amin.

Finally, SIS

Finally I did the SIS yesterday. It was so very painful, i'm telling you. Half hour before I did SIS, the nurse called me to insert the pill through the anus. First, the doctor will clean your "area", then he will insert the catheter. When he did that to me, it wasn't painful yet. Then, the nurse will inject the liquid through the catheter. It started to be painful. Then the doctor will insert the USG tool, so that we can see what happens through the monitor. The doctor told me that the liquid could pass through the fallopian tube, my left one, as for the right one, it is completely blocked. He showed me that. And yeah, I could see it. At first, the liquid couldn't really pass through my left fallopian tube smoothly, then he asked the nurse to inject some more. Then it started to be really painful. I told the doctor, it really hurt. The doctor tried to make me ignore the feeling by keeping the conversation going between he and I. Then he kept talking and talking to explain what was going on. And he was quite satisfied that my fallopian tube is still ok. Although it's only 1. He said, "It's a good start. Now, the tube is clear and clean. So next month, we'll start the program." and he smiled. i felt relieved. I stayed lying there for about 2 minutes. Then we went home. We had lunch though, coz i didn't feel hurt. Then as we were going home, i started to feel uncomfy in my stomach. When we arrived home, i laid down on my bed. And since that time, the pain kept hurting me. I couldn't sleep at night. But thank God, it feels better now. I had to be off from work for 2 days. Sigh! So, for you who want to do SIS, be prepared well. Oh, the doctor also prescribed me some medicines, antibiotic, one kind of medicine i don't really know what for, and one is for the pain killer. The doctor also told me the pain would last for 1-2 days. I hope it's getting better tomorrow so that I can go back to work.

Another session with Dr. P

Just yesterday I went to see Dr. P again to have a consultation about my HSG result. He told me that my right fallopian tube is blocked (which I have already known) and he was mumbling "it can't be fixed, it has to be operated". Then he said to me, "I will do SIS next week. I'll do it on your left fallopian tube." I repeated what he said, "my left fallopian tube, doc? not my right?" He answered, "Yes, I want to make sure that the left one is really OK so that you can get pregnant. but if the result is not as I expect, then we can do laparoscopy. If you have any savings, then we can do it." Then I know that laparoscopy is not cheap at all. I searched on the internet, it cost around 20-30 millions in 2008, so I believe now it costs around 30-40 millions. Wow! Then, the doctor said, if laparoscopy doesn't work, then maybe the last choice is IVF. Oh, God, that's not what I have planned. I never want to have an IVF. So I've changed my plan, that ok, I'll have my SIS next week, but that's it. If the result is good, then I'll take the program, but if not, then I'll stop. God only knows. I can't afford that much. The burden is too heavy for me. Not to mention the cost. I know that we have to do our best, but my best is just that much. I can do no more. God knows my strength, physically, mentally, and financially. So, my dear baby, please forgive your mother, if we are meant to be together here on earth, I believe there will be a way for me to finally find you. If not, I believe God loves you more than I do. Hugs and kisses from mommy and daddy, whereever you are right now.

Ketemu Obgyn lagi

Bulan ini ternyata masih dpt. Walopun kecewa, Alhamdulillah jg. Apapun tetap berusaha untuk mensyukuri apa yg Allah SWT berikan padaku. Karena bln ini dpt, jadi besok, hari ke 2, mesti konsul lagi dg obgyn. Ketemu lagi deh dok. Sekalian konsul hasil hsg jg sih. Udah hsg bln lalu, tp blm di konsul kan. hehehe. So, tomorrow I'll see my obgyn again. Entah mau diapain lagi besok, apakah cuman bahas hasil hsg, ato mau liat sel telur ku lagi? I don't know. Whatever it is, berarti I must be prepared for SIS tar hari ke 9. Mudah2an ada rejeki tambahan. Hihihi.... lumayan jg sih biayanya. Tuhan Maha Tahu kekuatan hambaNya. Besok cerita lagi....